Random Thought Tuesday

So lately I have been realizing that maybe I am too hard on myself. I think I am a great wife and mother, but you just have mommy guilt sometimes. I need to realize that I do what I can and as long as my family is happy and taken care of that is what matters. Everybody says that time goes so fast and I want D to remember a mom that spent time with her not one that stressed about the house being clean all of the time.

I need to spend more time studying my Bible. If I studied the Bible as much as I checked my facebook, read emails and blogs I would be a whole lot better off.

I am thankful for who I am and what God has given me. I have recently come to this realization. I used to be really self conscious and worried about what people thought of me. Some of that was just me and some was listening to what other people thought I should be like. I have finally decided that I am just going to be me and you either like it or you don't. I am tired of being a people pleaser or being worried about making someone uncomfortable.

I worry too much, this is a big struggle for me. I trust God, but I don 't trust God. I have a hard time letting things go and knowing that God will take care of me and my family. He always has and I have no right to doubt that but I just have a hard time giving up the reigns.

I am tired of the "mean" stage that D is in. She tries to love on babies but is too ruff. She is really into pinching and sometimes I feel like all I tell her is "no" all day long. I don't like that but sometimes I don't know what else to do. I am definitely ready for this stage to be over with.